I'm making my way through each day. Pain may not kill a person, but it can drive them in one way or another. For me, it pushes me to do what I can on the days I'm feeling better. They don't seem often enough. I've started having headaches every day or every other day. And they often reach migraine status. The pain goes from inside my head all the way down my neck, and finally, into my shoulders and the spinal section between them. Then there is the constant feeling of being off-balanced. A lightheadedness that makes me feel as though my head isn't attached to my body. I'm uncertain in each step. I jokingly told my husband, I just bounce off the walls - back and forth - until I reach my destination. He didn't see the humor in it... Lastly, I'm experiencing a rise in the tingling sensations in my hands. They switch off, but at least one usually has this feeling at any given time.
Some of my husband's family gave him some
money recently. A gift. He was talking about things we could use part of it for.
Either towards a new mattress or maybe a new pillow that supports my
neck better. He even thought maybe a massage to loosen up the neck
tension would be helpful. This last one seemed pretty good to me. If we
are able, that's what I'll do next week when he can help with the baby. I think this might ease the pain and with less tension, the headaches will lighten up.
still wants me to leave the GoFundMe campaign going. I'll be perfectly honest, I feel as though
it may have been a lost cause. I've received 2 donations so far.
And both have been from my younger sister. I teased her about funding my
next medical procedure singlehandedly. Sadly, if that were the case, I
won't be getting another procedure for at least 8 years. I'm thinking
now just isn't the time. Everyone is pouring money into Christmas gifts.
And if not that, then they are like us. Broke. Everything coming in
goes towards bills. Especially with the economy as it is. Still, he
encourages me to keep it active and have hope.
That is why I have
decided to post this and ask for a favor. Even if you can't donate, I am
asking you for two other things. If you are spiritual, please pray. I
don't hope for miracles. I believe they are possible. Just not for me.
But maybe pray that I have less pain. And secondly, please share it.
Just maybe someone out there can help. If not, at least I can say I